Today’s your lucky day!

A long time ago, I gave up lent for lent, and I’ve never looked back.  But I realize many of you out there are devout Catholics who are now spending your first day abstaining from something you probably shouldn’t have been eating, doing, or touching anyway.  This post is for you.

If you’re anything like me, you’ve spent most of your life trying to do two things: 1) find a non-gamma ray related way to turn into the Hulk; and 2) find out just what music Mariska Hargitay listens to while working out.


Well, the search is over.  No, not that one.  Thanks to Self (the magazine made both for women who want to be fit and 12-year-old boys who love B-list stars in their bikinis), we can finally crack that Hargitay mystery.  Here is the music “that keeps her moving.”

Plus, the fine detectives at Self even gave us sneak a peak into the listening workout habits of Jennifer Aniston, Jenna Fischer, and Michelle Williams.

Question to self: Should I put less Paul Pena on my iPod?

Hilda Solis is the Secretary of Labor!!

It is finally official!  After two months of delays by the Republicans, Hilda Solis has received the required votes from the Senate to become to head of the U.S. Department of Labor.

Testament to her regard within the progressive labor movement–and to her support for “card check” legislation–the Solis appointment has received an uncharacteristic amount of attention by the minority party in Congress, resulting in the two-month delay.

This is the first time a pro-labor advocate (and a Chicana) has been appointed to the post.  Solis is a real progressive, somebody who will keep the interests of the working poor and middle-class at the forefront of her efforts.

Transgender Veterans

From the Arizona Daily Star comes this fascinating story about transgender veterans and the struggles they face both in and out of the military.  The reporter, Carol Ann Alaimo, published a follow-up story on the VA’s policy banning transsexual surgeries at their hospitals.

Transgender vets a hidden population

Men with gender struggles drawn to macho military

By Carol Ann Alaimo


In a city that prides itself on respect for military veterans, scorn is a fact of life for former Army captain Erin Russ.

Neighbors gawk when she takes out the trash. At local malls, teenagers titter and hiss as the strapping ex-infantry officer shops for cashmere and heels.

Even simple errands can be a source of angst for Russ, who was born a man but now lives as a woman.

Decades after former soldier Christine Jorgensen stunned 1950s America by undergoing a sex change, a small army of veterans in similar straits has quietly sprung up in Tucson and around the country.

Officially, the Pentagon bans transsexuals — those who believe they were born with the wrong male or female parts — from serving.

Yet some research suggests there may be a higher prevalence in the military than in society at large. That’s because some young men, conflicted over their feminine feelings, enlist to try to escape them, the research found.

Advocates refer to these former troops as “invisible” veterans.

“This is something I think nobody wants to talk about,” said Russ, 52. “Transgender veterans basically make other people rethink their preconceived ideas of what a veteran is. We don’t just push the envelope — we crumple it up and throw it away.”

Mocked by strangers and often shortchanged by the veterans health-care system, these ex-troops say they get little of the respect accorded to those they served alongside.

“Serious medical condition”

No one knows for sure how many veterans are affected by “gender identity disorder,” which the American Medical Association calls “a serious medical condition . . . which causes intense emotional pain and suffering.”

Because prejudice against them is so prevalent, many transgender veterans choose to live in “stealth” mode — quietly trying to blend into society.

The Southern Arizona VA Health Care System sees close to 50 former troops who are transsexual or are diagnosed with gender disorder, many of them in various states of transition from their birth sex. And there may be dozens more who aren’t registered for care with the VA, local advocates say.

A national group, the Transgender American Veterans Association, estimates that somewhere around 300,000 transgender people have served, or now serve, in the U.S. military. That’s roughly 1 percent of the country’s nearly 27 million veterans and 2.2 million active-duty and reserve troops.

Transgender people aren’t eligible to serve because they fall under a policy that excludes those with “learning, psychiatric and behavioral disorders,” said Douglas Smith, a spokesman for U.S. Army recruiting command.

Yet one of the few studies ever published on the topic said the U.S. military probably has more of them in its ranks than the percentage in the general population.

A study titled “Transsexuals in the Military: Flight Into Hypermasculinity” — a classic still cited in college texts on gender issues — was written in 1988 by Dr. George R. Brown, then an Air Force captain and psychiatrist at Wright-Patterson Air Force Base in Ohio.

Brown found it curious that in a three-year period at the Midwestern base, he came across 11 men — eight current and former military, the rest civilians such as Defense Department staffers — all seeking treatment to become women.

Transsexuality is an issue “believed by many not to exist” in the armed forces, he noted. Yet each veteran told him nearly the same thing: He had enlisted hoping to “become a real man.”

Brown also noted that late adolescence — the stage when cross-gender feelings can become so confusing that some feel an urgent need to escape them — coincides with the prime recruiting age for the predominantly male U.S. military.

Because of that, he said, the “prevalence of transsexualism in the armed forces may actually be much higher than in the civilian population.”

Brown’s findings ring true for Dr. Jennifer Vanderleest, an assistant professor at the University of Arizona College of Medicine — one of the few in the country where future doctors are trained on the medical needs of transgender patients.

Vanderleest conducts that training. She has treated more than 100 transgender people in Tucson, including many veterans who “are very proud of their military service,” she said.

Many wait decades before seeking medical help, she said. Avoidance is common because confronting the truth can be wrenching in a culture that often is hostile.

“How can you process what is going on with you internally when you are operating in a world where you can’t be who you are?” she asked, describing their dilemma.

In America and many other countries, military careers are killed by such admissions.

Don’t ask, don’t tell — the U.S. policy on gay and lesbian personnel — doesn’t cover transgender troops, who typically are forced out if discovered. A few Western militaries, though — including Canada and the United Kingdom — welcome their service and even pay for their sex-change surgeries.

“Something was different”

Transgender people often sense their predicaments at a young age, Vanderleest said.

That’s how it was for Russ, the former Army captain who has been living full time as a female since 2001. Even as a preschooler, she said, “I knew something was different about me.”

Joining the military was one action in a long list of things — playing football, becoming an Eagle Scout, getting married and becoming a father — that Russ hoped would still the inner sense of being born with the wrong anatomy.

“You think if you do enough things of a male nature, then you will become male, and the female thoughts will go away.”

Growing up in Syracuse, N.Y., in a 1950s neighborhood chock- full of other boys, Russ chose to play with girls and was deemed “a sissy.”

In junior high, Russ started cross-dressing in secret, a practice that would continue for years as the young man wrestled with the turmoil between who he believed he was and who he pretended to be.

Commissioned as an Army officer in 1979, Russ served a total of 11 years in the reserves and on active duty, and planned to stay on until retirement. But in 1990, Russ said, “my career came to a screeching halt.”

While stationed at Fort Wainwright in Alaska, the captain, off-duty and dressed as a woman, was stopped by civilian police for a driving violation. The traffic cop “wrote a page-long report on how I was dressed and gave a copy to the military,” Russ said.

“On Monday morning, I was called into the commander’s office and told I was going to be court-martialed for conduct unbecoming an officer.”

Russ was allowed to resign honorably and, after a painful divorce, came to Tucson a few years later. “At that point, I was thinking, ‘I can’t go on like this.'”

So she grew her hair long and started going to the veterans hospital for hormone treatments, which softened her skin and swelled her breasts.

She turned to the Bible for comfort — she leads a monthly Bible study for transgender people — and got therapy to help her cope.

Then, ignoring the neighbors’ stares, the 6-foot-2 former soldier walked out her front door and started living a new life.

“People usually don’t change until the pain of staying the same exceeds the pain of changing,” Russ said. “For me, the pain of staying the same was overwhelming.”

Risk of suicide

For some, suicide starts to seem like the best solution.

Diane Steen, an Air Force veteran who served as a man and now is a woman, often thought of killing herself.

“I was suicidal for most of my adult life. It’s a very lonely journey to live a lie,” said Steen, a youthful 64-year-old who has been volunteering at Tucson’s veterans hospital since 2004.

Like Russ, Steen sensed early that something was amiss, but he had no words to describe it growing up in 1940s Indiana.

By age 6, Steen, then a little boy named Robert, was cross-dressing in outfits borrowed from cousins. Before long, he was sneaking his mother’s lipstick.

In 1952, when Steen was in third grade, a bombshell hit America: Newspapers revealed that a male military veteran had gone to Europe for a sex-change operation and had come back as a woman — Christine Jorgensen.

The tale intrigued Steen.

“I heard the surgery cost $2,000 and I remember thinking to myself: ‘If I had $2,000, I would do that.’ Now why would a kid even think something like that?”

Decades passed before Steen allowed the thought to surface again. Through marriage, fatherhood and four years in the military, “I buried my transsexual self very deep,” she said.

Today, Jorgensen’s biography shares shelf space in Steen’s library with books on Civil War history. Her bedroom has mauve walls, a cream-colored velvet bedspread and a closet brimming with size 12 women’s wear.

Five years after her own sex- change surgery, “I am at peace,” Steen said.

Assaulted over gender

For former soldier Janey Kay, peace has been more elusive.

The two-tour Vietnam veteran moved to Tucson from Missouri in 2006 and hoped life would get easier after she decided to become a woman.

Last October outside Tucson Greyhound Park — eight months after undergoing sex-change surgery in Thailand — Kay was assaulted by a man who kicked and punched her, calling her a “drag queen” and a “faggot,” a police report said.

He also tore out two handfuls of Kay’s hair in the attack.

The suspect, a 48-year-old Tucson man, was charged on suspicion of assault. No trial date has been set.

Besides Kay’s diagnosis of gender-identity disorder, she suffers from chronic post-traumatic stress disorder and other problems that leave her vulnerable to mood swings. She also battles depression so severe that she’s been treated in the past with electroshock therapy, her medical records show.

Kay, 59, said her mental problems were aggravated by decades of living in the wrong body.

“I remember as young as 8 or 9 years old looking in the mirror and seeing a girl. I just repressed it and repressed it until, finally, I cracked.”

She enlisted in the military, she said, because she was terrified of the truth. “Joining the Army was an escape. I thought I could get away from it, but I could never escape.”

20 years in uniform

Mick Andoso of Tucson, now a bearded construction inspector, kept his secret for 20 years as a woman in the Air Force.

Andoso, 51, retired in 1995 as a first sergeant. Back then, Andoso’s name was Master Sgt. Brenda Weichelt — who in 1994 was named one of the service’s top airmen for her work at the military’s Defense Language Institute in California.

Andoso still has a copy of an Air Force Sergeants Association magazine describing the award, and photos taken with the service’s top brass. Also among the keepsakes is a letter from Brenda’s last commander.

“You are among the few rare exceptions whose absolute dedication to duty, commitment to excellence and genuine concern for your service and your fellow airmen, set you so far apart that I can never forget your outstanding achievements,” it said.

Andoso joined the service to obtain job skills and escape from a family that didn’t understand why Brenda, as a youngster, had always insisted she was a boy.

Once in uniform, “I had to resign myself that I couldn’t (become a male) because I loved the Air Force, and I would’ve had to give that up.”

Andoso still looks back fondly on his military days. But he’s disappointed by how the Air Force has treated him since he retired and switched genders.

A few years ago, after legally changing his name and gender, he said he went to Davis-Monthan Air Force Base to ask for a new photo ID card to access base services for retirees. He showed a clerk a copy of his court order.

The D-M staffer said the Air Force doesn’t allow gender changes, Andoso recalled. “He was really rude. I got the impression he was disgusted by me.”

A D-M spokeswomen, 1st Lt. Mary Pekas, said Defense Department policy forbids gender changes in its records system. Department lawyers “reviewed that policy on several occasions and found it to be legally supportable,” Pekas said.

Andoso’s run-in is not surprising, said Monica Helms, a Vietnam-era Navy submariner and president of the Transgender American Veterans Association, a national group formed in 2003 to combat stigma against such veterans.

Transgender veterans often are disrespected at military bases, in the VA system and elsewhere in a society that professes to honor those who have served their nation, she said.

“Transgender people have fought in every war, shedding the same red American blood as every other person who has protected this nation,” Helms said.

“We have done our part to preserve the freedom of everyone in this country,” she said, “and we are proud to have served.”

You can access the second part of the two-part series, “VA Reviewing policy against transsexual surgery,” by clicking here.

The Oppression We Condone

Imagine a young, college student loading a bong and taking a hit. Then, imagine somewhere else, another person bites into a salad and swallows a small tomato. Neither person thinks they are hurting anyone by their actions. Neither thinks for a moment their action is connected to other people.

But both are wrong.

Two tragic articles bring this home. The first is a piece on the drug war in Mexico, featured in the latest issue of Foreign Policy.

“Mexico’s hillbilly drug smugglers have morphed into a raging insurgency. Violence claimed more lives there last year alone than all the Americans killed in the war in Iraq. And there’s no end in sight.”

It is a sad reminder of the brutal human cost that comes with the criminalization of drugs and drug use, yes, but it is also damning of U.S. consumption.  Even if marijuana and other drugs were legal in the U.S., the scale of our consumption would still create and nurture many of the power dynamics currently at play in the hemisphere.

If you doubt that, read this article on the production of tomatoes in South Florida. Featured in Gourmet magazine, it details the presence of modern slavery in the U.S.

“If you have eaten a tomato this winter, chances are very good that it was picked by a person who lives in virtual slavery. “

This perfectly legal food is  produced in ways which view their Latino laborers as nothing more than an ingredient to production, like dirt, water, or seed.  While this situation is both simple and complicated, the suffering is undeniable.

Halting our consumption of items which produce human suffering is a small change anybody can make.  Consumption feeds the continuation of the systems in question, both of which exact immeasurable human costs.  But that won’t do much to change the real problem.

James Baldwin once wrote of the indifference of whites to black suffering saying “It is their innocence that constitutes the crime.” What he meant is that “not knowing” isn’t a sign of innocence. Not when we live in a world where suffering is so easily evident.  Instead, it’s a sign of our guilt because it is the product of effort–effort to not know, effort to not associate yourself as linked to another you know is in pain, effort to preserve your need (for whatever) at the cost of others’ needs for human dignity and life.

When we open our eyes and see that the suffering of others is our suffering, then we are prepared to begin the hard work of creating the kinds of change called for in these situations.  What would you do to stop the abuse of your brother?  What would you do to save the life of your sister?

The article in Gourmet came to my attenton via Harvesting Justice, the wonderful blog of the non-profit advocacy group Farmworker Justice.

That Mexican Smell

I’m doing some archival work right now (that’s fancy historian talk for sitting in a quite room and reading dusty things people haven’t read in a long time), and I came across the following. It comes from a research report on Mexican and Anglo relations in the small, agricultural town of Castroville, California. The research was done in the 1960s.

Several Anglos said that the Mexicans have a peculiar odor which is just “part of being Mexican.” One old man went so far as to say that he could “always tell a Mexican by the way they smell.” The odor was variously described as being “sticky sweet” to “sour” but those who claimed its existence were quite positive that it was peculiarly Mexican. Two school teachers agreed that their Mexican pupils smelled differently than their “white” pupils. One of the teachers, however, thought it was only the boys who smelled.

We Love You, We Hate You

In an effort to bolster their numbers and fill specific needs, the U.S. military is implementing a pilot program to recruit (legal) immigrants who are not permanent residents, reports the New York Times.  The carrot they will dangle is an expedited pathway to citizenship.

Immigrants who are permanent residents, with documents commonly known as green cards, have long been eligible to enlist. But the new effort, for the first time since the Vietnam War, will open the armed forces to temporary immigrants if they have lived in the United States for a minimum of two years, according to military officials familiar with the plan…

Pentagon officials expect that the lure of accelerated citizenship will be powerful. Under a statute invoked in 2002 by the Bush administration, immigrants who serve in the military can apply to become citizens on the first day of active service, and they can take the oath in as little as six months.

Immigrants have composed a notable part of the U.S. military for years (making up more than half of the ranks in the 1840s.  In modern times, this has especially been the case in the post-9/11 era when demands on personnel have meant widespread concerns they are being spread too thin.  As the article notes, some 29,000 immigrants now serve (and this figure does not account for the more than 35,000 active personnel who have become naturalized citizens since 9/11).

The effort–which targets “immigrants who speak one or more of 35 languages, including Arabic, Chinese, Hindi, Igbo (a tongue spoken in Nigeria), Kurdish, Nepalese, Pashto, Russian and Tamil”–is a pilot program, which has been in the works for some time:

The program will begin small — limited to 1,000 enlistees nationwide in its first year, most for the Army and some for other branches. If the pilot program succeeds as Pentagon officials anticipate, it will expand for all branches of the military. For the Army, it could eventually provide as many as 14,000 volunteers a year, or about one in six recruits…

Although the Pentagon has had wartime authority to recruit immigrants since shortly after the Sept. 11 attacks, military officials have moved cautiously to lay the legal groundwork for the temporary immigrant program to avoid controversy within the ranks and among veterans over the prospect of large numbers of immigrants in the armed forces.

Spanish speakers are not eligible, although the military continues to struggle with its desire for more Latinos.

I don’t find this particular effort at military recruitment that significant (unlike many of these folks consumed by their fears of an immigrant take over).  It does strike (yet another) hypocritical chord in the “immigration symphony” that is the United States.  While some sectors of this nation hate immigrants, others covet them.

The sad irony is there are people who give much of their daily life to the betterment of this country (even subsidizing our lifestyle by their dimished position in a racially-segregated and abusive labor market) and yet are afforded no consideration in terms of citizenship or other legal rights.

The difference here, of course, is a bargaining chip these immigrants have: their lives.  The article quotes an immigrant serviceman who became a citizen who, perhaps unintentionally, said it best: “We’re going to give people the opportunity to be part of the United States who are dying to be part of this country and they weren’t able to before now.”

Ethel Merman is still dead

This is going to be a new feature on LatinoLikeMe.  It’s a short remembrance written for the anniversary of the passing of somebody noteworthy.

While it will have nothing necessarily to do with Latinos or Chicanos, it is all about me.  History isn’t just my job, it’s my obsession.  I was a young, gen-X Chicano coming of age in southern California in the 80s, and I lived much of my cultural life reveling in the significance of my present moment.  I thought historically, and tried to organize the meaning of the daily events of my life in historical ways.

The deaths of famous people (or not so famous people whose significance I could discern) were standout moments, times whose powerful meanings were seemingly obvious.  Plus, I had a fascination with famous people dying.

So, today–February 15–we mark the 25th anniversary of the passing of Broadway legend Ethel Merman.  The loud and somewhat visually-eccentric woman captivated me when she visited the Tonight Show, or when I saw her on any show, really.  By the time I entered consciousness she was certainly passed her heyday (having retired from the stage that brought her more than thirty years of fame in 1961), but Ethel Merman still captivated an audience with all the power of her place in entertainment history.

I wasn’t a big fan of musicals, and until my late teen years I had never seen a proper “show,” but Ethel Merman kind of demanded you watch her when she took the stage.  You see, she could sing.  And she did so, loudly.  Famed composer Irving Berlin once said of Merman (who had no formal musical training):

You give her a bad song and she’ll make it sound good.  Give her a good song and she’ll make it sound great.  And you’d better write her a good lyric.  The guy in the last row of the balcony is going to hear every syllable.

Here’s Merman performing her signature tune, “There’s No Business Like Show Business.”

When Merman passed away in 1984, I remember thinking how something big had ended.  That might have been the melodramatic inclination of this 12 yeard-old Hollywood fanatic, but it wasn’t far from the mark.

White extremists are awfully sneaky

The Orlando Sentinel (Florida) reports a police officer in Fruitland Park resigned last month after information connecting him to the Ku Klux Klan became public, leading to an internal investigation.  James Elkins, who had been doing some after-work recruiting work for the KKK, also serves as the local “district Kleagle” of his National Aryan Knights chapter.  Investigators released the below picture of Elkins, dressed in green hood and robe.

Not too far away, in Jacksonville (North Carolina), the Daily News reports a man named Kody Brittingham is in jail awaiting trial on armed robbery and breaking and entering charges stemming from his arrest last December.  His arrest upset his employer–the United States Marines–who searched the young man’s barracks and found a journal which “contained plans on how to kill the president, as well as white supremacist material.”  The Secret Serivce is now, apparently, investigating him as a “credible threat.”

The issue of violence-promoting, white supremacists infiltrating law enforcement has a long tradition to it.  The same groups have also initiated efforts to enter the military as well.  A few years back, the Southern Poverty Law Center frightened more than a few government officials in their intelligence report “A Few Bad Men.”  Despite the military’s “zero tolerance” policy for these racial organizations, the same hate groups encourage military participation in order to get free training for their members.  (By the way, the Rumsfeld Defense Department dismissed the report back in 2006.)

These stories both entered my inbox via the SPLC’s blog, Hate Watch.  It is a thorough and sad source, but one I rarely fail to miss.

Our fear of the womb

It is interesting how, in so many ways, this nation maintains a fear of nonwhite wombs.  In this little tidbit, it is not hard to see how this is the case with respect to immigration.  My how race, gender, and policy can all come together!